My kidneys failed in 2012. My doctor suggested that I retire and enjoy the time that I had left. I didn’t know how much time I had left, but was committed to make the most with what I had to work with.
I did not know what challenges lay ahead for me, or the problems that I would have to contend with. Dialysis took a huge toll on my health and life in general. By 2016, I had to reconsider my options, and a transplant became the best choice .
Transplant is a very expensive undertaking, and it also meant being out of work for 4-6 months. It took 2 years to set aside the funds needed to cover the bills during my recuperation. Then I had to find a transplant center. This turned out to be a much bigger obstacle than I anticipated. Each time I applied at a center, it would take 3-6 months to get through the evaluation process. I was rejected 4 times. Then Covid hit, and I had to wait another 2 years.
My experiences with kidney disease and transplant surgery has given me an insight into life as an invalid. I know what it feels like to be weak and incapacitated. I had to learn to depend on others, and to be patient. Walking is still slow and my hips and legs ache if I stand or walk too long. I still have issues anemia, which keeps me feeling tired and depleted. I will have to live with these conditions for the rest of my life, but have learned to work around them and continue to serve others.
The one thing that kept me motivated to push through was my love for the work that I do as a healer. Without that goal in front of me, I would have easily caved in.
I came to understand that everything in life happens for a reason. I never accepted the idea that getting sick was unfortunate, or that I was cursed or doomed. I learned what it felt like to be compromised and vulnerable. I learned how to trust people and not to begrudge them if things did not go as expected, I learned that helplessness leads to anxiety, and I learned that the will is the strongest medicine of all. It was the belief in integration of Spirit, Mind and Body that kept me moving toward my goal.
The body is a willing servant and will rise to the demand set before it.
The mind controls perspective and influences the body in a positive or negative way.
Spirit withdraws when the mind rejects hope, and advances if allowed to lead.
The correct order is Spirit — Mind — Body
Recovery is not easy; it takes time and progress is painfully slow. Comparing your current physical capacity to what you could do 20 years ago is wrong. You must live in the present and make the most of what you have.
Vitality is the energy that will benefit your recovery the most. When I speak of vitality, I am talking about CHI, and it is the first thing that you learn about in Restorative healing. Restoring function takes time and perseverance. Fortunately, it is not a competition and you set your own goals and pace.